Back to Nokia

Probably I have not tell you that I switched my primary phone from iPhone SE to Samsung Galaxy Note8 at December last year. But this week I switch back to my old phone. Because... I lost my phone.

I have been taking graduate degree for about three months. Ever since I was a kid, my dream is to continue my study in Europe. But things happened and I must work after graduate from University two years ago. So now I took the graduate degree in Jakarta instead, while working at my current office. I'm now a graduate student in Universitas Indonesia.

I have class in afternoon and night, perfect time for crazy traffic jams inJakarta. So the most efficient way to go to the class is by train. Las Tuesday, my class finished at 19:00 and I went to Manggarai Station. At that time, the station was still full of people going back home after work. I took Bogor lane, one of the most crowded lane in the station.

Probably there were some problems with the trains, so I waited for a long time for the train. People was continue to come and it was getting crowded. Got bored, I opened my phone while listening to the music with my headphone.

The train we were waiting finally came, and I putted my phone into my jeans' pocket. Suddenly, a short man got in front of me, and people around me was scrambling to get into the train. It was very crowded, and all I knew was the music stopped and my phone no longer at my pocket.

I realized that at the time, I was thinking about many things and my mind was not focus. I must aware for everybody around me, especially people beside me. I must focus with all of my belonging, including my phone.

But all of our wealth belong to God, and can be taken at any time. I must get over it.

For work purpose, I must have an android phone. Because it is an emergency, I bought a cheap phone. The best choice is Nokia 3. I bought it for IDR 1.3M (about 100 USD). I choose that because it has good design and NFC for card top up. But it is very slow and the battery is not good. But I must being grateful for what I have. It's not the best phone, but my needs are covered with it.

Be a better person for everything we have.

Me and Jakarta Life

Hello! Very long time no see. Beside my work, now I take master study (night class) in the biggest university in Jakarta. So hectic yet I enjoy it. So Now I just want to give you update about my life.

My latest post was written in a city that different from now. Yes, I have moved from Bogor to Jakarta!!!

One of my friends asked me what city I prefer to work. And I replied Jakarta! As soon as I graduate, I rented a room in a boarding house in East Jakarta for a more convenient job seeking. But I have grown a connection with this city long before, actually.

When I entered college, my parents live just two of them in my hometown. So, whenever my father had office activity in Jakarta, my mother accompanied my father, and if I had time, I went along too.

Jakarta is so big and different from any other cities in my country. It houses many different people, the most diverse as the capital city of Indonesia. In my hometown, I often feel alone, but in this city, with so many people here, I feel more comfortable.

And now, I have worked in Jakarta for 8 months, more than when I live in Bogor.

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Yes, Now I have whatever I want. I have a stable job, in a big company, in a big city, with great friends and a good amount of salary. I bought all of my dream stuff: latest MacBook Pro, iPad Pro, iPhone, Galaxy Note, branded bags, shoes, clothes, I even already have a house in Jakarta and a house in outskirt Jakarta. What else?

I'm not okay.

I find that what I faced in the last 2 years of uni has intoxicated my mental health. Or more precisely awaken my dark side. Whatever I try to solve that, the shadow still appears and haunting myself. I feel... depression. Even when there are no bad things happen with me. Even when my life goes smooth and perfect.

I'm not okay.